Office by Alex Penny
!WARNING THIS BLOG IS TRIGGERING! my name is Sickling. 19. Ukrainian. wish i was 5'10.5. dress however i want with a very unique and distinct array of clothes and taste. lots of piercings, obsessed with fashion/art/perfection. insane. Anorexic/(tryingnottobe)bulimic.learning to maintain a double digit weight. striving to be pale, bony, and fragile. ironically very afraid of death.
i use this blog to inspire, motivate, and clear my head a little and vent where no one can judge. oh and iif anyone wants thinspo, ive got lots to share. welcome to my tumblr:)
goodbye thigh gap, goodbye collar bones,goodbe hipbones, goodbye xylophone, goodbye fucking backhipbones andd tail bones fuck fuck fuck. i am not going to stay fat though, i am only taking a short break, perhaps to strengthen my organs, and then ill be back to 93 lbs where i am leaving off, fuck me i was one away frpm 92 which is where i want to stay :( fuck my life fuck my life fuck my life
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flashingdoor: you seem to be a very beautiful girl! keep your head high! I really adore the way you dress. i hope you have a nice and calm day with a calm mind. Don't forget that you're not alone! Lots of smiles :3
this was the most perfect message i could have gotten today, thank ou so much <3
please let me stay this way
Anonymous: I'm struggling I'm struggling I got better I promise. So why am I back here? I'm only 14 this shouldn't be happening again. This shouldn't, I have the most perfect guy and I don't want to put him through this's but I've lost total control. I can't do this, I can't I can't. I need out.
.. because once you get a taste of being perfect snd skinny„ you never want to go back. and why would we?„ im already planning my relapse fuuuck
celticbutterfly: I went to residential treatment for anorexia last summer. Treatment a tough experience, but I promise you it's worth it. All the obsessing an the stress starts to go away, and you start to remember what you wanted life to be before the eating disorder took over. If you need someone to talk to, my ask box is always there. You can do this. You CAN be healthy and happy.
oh gosh thank you for replying„ i have a couple questions regarding everything. how long did it take to come to terms with the conecept of gaining weight? my biggest fear is knowing my thighs are going to touch and not seeing my xylophone i didnt realize how dear these things are to me until someone is going to take them away( and i m afraid im going to hate myself even more when i see the differences in my body. even though they probly let you out when they are sure you wont just jump back into weight loss, what did you weight going in/ coming out?
i am supposed to start getting fat next week and so i am a fucking mess right now i cant bear it
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please dont make me eat please dont make me gain i really really really do not want recovery i dont even care that my hair falls out and i get a pregnant belly everytime i eat something i just want to be empty, id give anything to stay where i am right now anything in the entire world
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please dont close the lid just yet, i feel there is still some air in my lungs. a drop of blood still traveling a vein
haii there :)
